Before you came along...

once upon a time ago

Way back in the day

I used to stay out late

And i would dance the night away

I used to have time to kill

'cause every day was long

The first to come the last to leave

Before you came along

Well i used to leave my house

And my clothes were always clean

And all these wrinkles on my face

You never would have seen

And every day my hair was done

And always makeup on

I used to fit into my jeans

Before you came along

But i never knew a little face

Could take a breath away

And who'd have thought one single smile

Was enough to make a day?

I never heard a laugh that sounded

Sweeter than a song

Before you came along

Well once upon a time ago

I remember when

I used to be good company

For all of my friends

And when i'd go to bed

Well i would sleep the whole night long

I'd never seen the sun come up

Before you came along

But i never knew a little face

Could take a breath away

And who'd have thought one single smile

Was enough to make a day?

I never heard a laugh that sounded

Sweeter than a song

Before you came along

Yeah i never heard a laugh that sounded

Sweeter than a song

Before you came along

Before you came along

-Kasey Chambers, Poppa Bill and The Little Hillbillies

My Mom wanted to write a post!

We have had it pretty easy with Kieran so far, the one thing that I thought I wouldn't have to worry about has be come my biggest worry... Feeding. I want nothing more than for Kieran to be only eating breast milk! In my head it is the healthiest choice and I want only the best for my sweet boy and formula is so damn expensive. We just bought a large can that will last us probably 2 weeks for $30! geez! I want to barf everytime I am scooping out that powder.. I am so mad that I have to spend money on this. Why won't my body produce enough milk to feed my baby! I have been struggling with this since he has been born and I just won't give up! I am trying everything I can to try to increase my milk supply and nothing seems to be working! UGH, it's soooo frustrating! 

I have been very stressed out about this, I feel like I failed even though there is nothing I can do about this situation. I KNOW that this is out of my control, however I just want to be able to control it! haha I have become obsessed with this. My sister was telling me about a friend of hers whos friend just had a baby and she was over there while her friend was pumping and the girl filled 4 bottles in ONE session.. ARE YOU KIDDING ME??? I am lucky to get 4 drops each time I pump! haha seriously I am lucky to get just over an ounce after a 20 min pumping session.. pathetic! Brooke, Shawn, Kieran and I went to Yo Mama the other night and as we are standing in line I tell them that I have a new unrealistic goal, to be able to pump 4 bottles at once. That night I went home and dreamt about it.. you see I have turned into a nutcase about this! Obsessed I tell ya! (as I sit here drinking my mother's milk tea)